Mindflail

Okay, so I was going to post about how I’m inevitably turning into a boring person who thinks of nothing but the SAT and the IB and colleges all day (hyperbole, y’all better appreciate it), but I found something much more worth of my words.

WHAT IS IT? IT IS THE NEW HOMESTUCK ALBUM, FOR YOU AWESOME-AS-FUCK HOMESTUCKERS OUT THERE

Even the album art is awesome.

“One Year Older” by Erik “Jit” Scheele. It is on my list of Best Albums now. I love every single song. These songs, they are making me happy and sad and happy and sad and happy and sad depending on the song and ALL THE FEELS, ALL OF THE FEELS. Also the fact that this is heavily piano-based! The piano is just such a melodic and emotional instrument (yeah, no duh). Alright, I will admit, I am biased. I play the piano. 

OHOHOHO this means that I will get the chance to attempt each and every song without sounding like a hopeless failure. 

Such. An. Auditory. Orgasm. 

Anyway, on a more depressing note, I will continue to research Personal Statement help tips to waste time and procrastinate while still remaining on-topic. And also do SAT practice. Because my future sort of depends on it. And also WRITE my Personal Statement. Do you know what is worse than writing a Personal Statement? SCRAPPING THE PREVIOUS PERSONAL STATEMENT THAT YOU ALREADY FINISHED BECAUSE YOU FOUND A MUCH BETTER TOPIC (or in my case, my <strikethrough>bestfriend</strikethrough> butler found it). OH THE PAIN. 

Let me attempt to overcome my inherent laziness once again. 

Korra

Now that I’m happily in America…THE LEGEND OF KORRA, YO. I am so going to watch all the aired episodes. The only downside to my plan: the crappy Internet speed. So now I’m like two minutes into the first episode and waiting for the rest to load! It’s currently stuck at 4 minutes and won’t go any further. 

Which is super annoying!

If you haven’t watched Avatar: The Last Airbender, you totally should. It’s a kid’s show, yeah sort of, but it’s not like that at all. The storyline is awesome, the characters are well-developed and realistic, and I also suck at giving reviews of any sort so I’m going to stop riiiiight here. 

About the slow Internet speed? I wasn’t kidding. 

I’ll probably finish the laundry before I even finish one episode. 

Panicky

Called friend in Shanghai today and the subject of homework was inevitable. Am thinking about all the things I should have done and should be doing right now and I am sort of panicking. As a matter of fact I failed to sleep on the bus because I was thinking about my essays that are due by September and that I have not yet even started. This is bad.

Frankly I am very tempted to continue ignoring their existence for the rest of my stay in America. This however is obviously one of the worst solutions I could ever decide to implement. 

I am going to make my third redraft of my Personal Statement now and hopefully think up one or two topics to use for my World Literature essays (2x), and maybe even write the structure.

Bleak. Bleak. I have still a 4000 word draft of a research essay on top of that.

I should not have ignored it so far. I have been enjoying myself too much these weeks. America is everything and more than I had ever thought it would be. I am having one of my best holidays in my life.

Good things don’t last forever. Bit by bit, I shall have to make my way back into the world of reality, competition, college applications and IB.

Afternoon

As none of you know, I am currently in Boston, MA! For now I’m with a summer program so I’m living at a nearby university, but later I’ll get some free time and then fly across the country to California, hell yes.

Anyway. Productive afternoon (I guess). I had a few hours free, so I decided to hang in the Campus Center! Found my way there after a lot of map-consulting, getting lost and finally asking this cute dude for directions. Got Starbucks. Sat and wasted time on the Internet. And then I played pool for an hour, on my own. I only just learned, so it’s good practice (????) . An hour away from class-time, I left for the campus store. Browsed through everything and bought hair ties + 2 books. A flash storm took place while I was there but fortunately it soon ended, leaving me less than half an hour to walk to class. Which I did, successfully. Got there 15 minutes earlier and wrote the essay that was due in class, successfully. 

And then there was class, and it was interesting because half of it consisted of my having a conversation with the teacher / friend. This summer program is filled with local Chinese people and has only 3 first-language English students, and Chinese students are incredibly laid back (or at least these are). Nobody had any questions or even constructive comments.

I hate to sound racist, but being around these kids can sometimes be REALLY embarrassing. Once when we were touring another university campus, this painfully Chinese-looking boy pressed the Emergency button making the police come. 

I sound awfully biased, but I have never before been so ashamed to be Asian. 

These small things remind me why I hated China so much when I first went there. There is pretty much no sense of social responsibility and almost everyone just does whatever annoys other people the most.

Yeah, this is like, a pet peeve or something except it probably isn’t what you would typically call a pet peeve. 

Yeah whatever I’ll shut up now

Summertime.

The title totally reminds myself of the song “In the Summertime”, of which artist’s name I forgot.

What can I say? This is the summer between two years of IB and seriously, there’s not much in terms of major rest and relaxation. Lots of essays, preparation for college–that sounds more like it! Which is sort of a shame, because I’ve only grown fond of holidays during recent years. The exciting thing about this summer, though, is the fact that I’ll be going to America for the first time in many years! 

Nevermind the fact that it’s partially for touring colleges and attending classes. It’s going to be fun anyway. Or at least I hope! Because I’m going to be with a group, like as in a summer program, it would totally suck if I couldn’t get along with the people there. Which I hope won’t happen. If it does, I guess I’ll just call people all the time and write/blog a lot.

(That sounds inviting.) But you get my gist!

So I guess this is turning into a “My Summer Plans” type of post. Oh well, I never seem to know what I want to write beforehand anyway. 

Summer program and touring aside, hopefully I’ll also get to meet an old friend! Who is sort of a sister-from-another-mother. So that should be a major highlight.  

( And all that aside I have a 4000 word draft, two English essays, an Art project and lots of late Bus.Man assignments that I have to hand in by the end of August. Am not happy about this: I leave in less than 10 days and have another 10 days after I get back from America to do this. More or less! )

IB aside, I really need to get my plans straight. I don’t really know which colleges I want to go to or what I want to study, and this is among the many things that I would like to find out this summer. I can’t prepare myself for what I don’t know will happen, so here’s hoping to getting that sorted out. Oh, and my personal statement. I need to get over my aversion to writing personal, emotional things in order to get that done. I find myself trying to hold back as much information as possible and seriously, I think I would feel a lot more comfortable writing someone else’s personal statement. I don’t like the feeling of having my thoughts and emotions on paper for anyone to see and laugh at.

Or having my emotions anywhere, really. 

But that’s growing up for you? Suck it up, that’s what I’ll have to do, just like all the people before me did and like all the people after me will have to do. 

Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. Hope y’all have a great summer too.